She slammed the book closed, glanced at the irritating red glare of the digital clock warning that in a moment her stomach would knot up with that 4am indegestion, and threw those damn pages against the wall.
Do you ever have a moment like these? You know, you've stayed up all night reading a book just to hate it by the end?
This is what every author dreads. And as I put my indie baby, Creating Fate, into the world, this is what I woke up this morning thinking? Gah, what if they hate it? Seriously, it's 4:30 am on a Saturday morning, and I'm worried about this.
But, is it a bad thing that I'm worried? No, it's a great thing! It means that I'm emotionally invested in this book and it's been a while since I felt like this. So, I'm glad to have that feeling back. I'm supposed to feel this way.
Artists of any nature have a perfectionist mentality--in my opinion--and letting their babies meet the world is the hardest thing. So many insecurities, concerns, and ideas go through your head when you are letting a little piece of yourself go. And, I don't think there is author out there that doesn't put a little piece of themself in every story.
So, as I sit here writing this, waiting for the blood to circulate through my vamp body, I wonder if I'm the only author that wakes up before the alarm on sleep-in mornings thinking about these things. I doubt that I am and I look forward to hearing from the others that do. I promise you, they're out there.
Last week was crazy here and I didn't get near as much done as I'd like, so other than the occasional guest post or update, you probably won't see or hear much from me this month. I'm getting ready for the mega release of Creating Fate. :) I hope you have a wonderful first part of the summer and look me up on FB or Twitter. I'm usually around, lol.